[ It had been a while since Walter had contacted Cissnei. There had been a brief text exchange once she was out of the nightmare forest, to check that she was safe outside of it again. But then he had left Johto to explore Kanto, and had bee carefully preparing things. This was the next step, although is was the most difficult.
Gracie the Floette was at his side to act as moral support, as was Claudia whenever he called her. He knew his Ninetales was friendly with Cissnei's shiny Lucario; that seemed to be a shared trait among his Pokemon. ]
[To be completely honest, Cissnei hadn't really been talking to anyone since the forest. Not even Korra, really. Sure the two were still traveling together but Cissnei was a bit more distant now than she'd ever been before and a lot of it had to do with the lingering nightmares she'd been having.
But she was glad to hear from her friend, all the same, and it showed in the way she smiled softly as she responded to the video.]
Of course. What can I do for you, Walter?
[Perched on her shoulder was a very fluffy Swablu who peered at the 'gear in a rather haughty manner, not familiar with these individuals and thus they were lesser than he.
I wanted to discuss...things from my world. And what you saw in the Forest.
[ He put his hands together, trying to think of how to talk about this. With Henry, he had crafted his worlds to show him his life, and his death. While he had spoken to some precious few about what he had been, he had learned that some people found it upsetting. Even if it simply was the truth. ]
You said I was bleeding, in the video. Was it from my neck? Here? [ He slightly tilted his head, pushing back his hair and touching over his artery; the one he had severed himself when he had committed suicide. ]
Yes. It is how I died. [ He tiled his head back correctly, hand dropping from his neck. Gracie floated resolutely beside him. ]
Before I came here...where I was from, I had been dead for ten years before I awoke here. I think that some Pokemon can sense that. Such as the Pokemon who created the forest.
[ On cue, Doll faded into view behind him. Gracie jumped, but smiled whens he recognised the Banette. Doll giggled good-naturedly and waved to her, then floated to his other shoulder and hung off it, like a cat. Walter glanced to her. ]
Cissnei's expression softens as she listens, taking it all in and filling in the gaps in some of the information she'd put together about Walter. His affinity with Ghost Pokemon, how protective they all were of him, how uncomfortable Walter seemed to be around others at times..it all made a little more sense now.]
Ten years is quite a long time. [It's said thoughtfully as Cissnei glances at Doll and smiles faintly.] Your Pokemon are protective of you because of that reason, I'm guessing. They all do seem rather perceptive so I'm not surprised they put it together.
[On her shoulder Emcee let's out a soft twill. Poor, strange man.]
I remember parts of it...I remember, standing over my grave. I had been buried in the town I had been raised, beside lake Toluca. It had been one of my favourite places...it was so quiet, and the lake always had a fog or a mist over it.
[ This was omitting a Lot of details but, he didn't want to go into depth about the rituals involved in bringing him back to being. ]
Sometimes, we would go out on the water too. We were only meant to go out there with the priests, but sometimes I would go to the shore alone. I'm glad, they buried me there. I was not sure if they would.
[ He sighed and avoided looking at her, speaking softly and reaching up to pet his Pokemon. ]
Even if he had not been there, I...my life was not kind. I had committed suicide, Cissnei.
I do not intend to do that here. This place...what I have here, is much better than how my life had been. It's still not easy...a year on, I am still surprised some mornings, to feel my heart beat. [ He turned to her. Doll slid into his lap and patted his side. Gracie also gave an encouraging cry, holding up her flower. ]
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Gracie the Floette was at his side to act as moral support, as was Claudia whenever he called her. He knew his Ninetales was friendly with Cissnei's shiny Lucario; that seemed to be a shared trait among his Pokemon. ]
Cissnei? Do you have some time?
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But she was glad to hear from her friend, all the same, and it showed in the way she smiled softly as she responded to the video.]
Of course. What can I do for you, Walter?
[Perched on her shoulder was a very fluffy Swablu who peered at the 'gear in a rather haughty manner, not familiar with these individuals and thus they were lesser than he.
At least in his mind.]
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[ He put his hands together, trying to think of how to talk about this. With Henry, he had crafted his worlds to show him his life, and his death. While he had spoken to some precious few about what he had been, he had learned that some people found it upsetting. Even if it simply was the truth. ]
You said I was bleeding, in the video. Was it from my neck? Here? [ He slightly tilted his head, pushing back his hair and touching over his artery; the one he had severed himself when he had committed suicide. ]
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Yes, that's where it was coming from.
[The Swablu on her shoulder fluffs up a bit, not liking the tone of this conversation one bit.]
Is..that significant for some reason?
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Before I came here...where I was from, I had been dead for ten years before I awoke here. I think that some Pokemon can sense that. Such as the Pokemon who created the forest.
[ On cue, Doll faded into view behind him. Gracie jumped, but smiled whens he recognised the Banette. Doll giggled good-naturedly and waved to her, then floated to his other shoulder and hung off it, like a cat. Walter glanced to her. ]
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Cissnei's expression softens as she listens, taking it all in and filling in the gaps in some of the information she'd put together about Walter. His affinity with Ghost Pokemon, how protective they all were of him, how uncomfortable Walter seemed to be around others at times..it all made a little more sense now.]
Ten years is quite a long time. [It's said thoughtfully as Cissnei glances at Doll and smiles faintly.] Your Pokemon are protective of you because of that reason, I'm guessing. They all do seem rather perceptive so I'm not surprised they put it together.
[On her shoulder Emcee let's out a soft twill. Poor, strange man.]
...I'm glad you were able to come here, at least.
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[ This was omitting a Lot of details but, he didn't want to go into depth about the rituals involved in bringing him back to being. ]
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[Cissnei can't honestly think of any sort of place like that from back home--
No. That's not true. Zack's home town had been extremely peaceful.]
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Sometimes, we would go out on the water too. We were only meant to go out there with the priests, but sometimes I would go to the shore alone. I'm glad, they buried me there. I was not sure if they would.
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[She watches him as she speaks, studying him, watching his expression.]
...You weren't able to rest in peace though, were you?
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[ He shook his head. He certainly did not rest in peace. ]
My afterlife was not something I could control. I told you before. Valtiel was always with me, and after I died I could not resist his calls.
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[It was a little terrifying to imagine.]
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Even if he had not been there, I...my life was not kind. I had committed suicide, Cissnei.
I do not intend to do that here. This place...what I have here, is much better than how my life had been. It's still not easy...a year on, I am still surprised some mornings, to feel my heart beat. [ He turned to her. Doll slid into his lap and patted his side. Gracie also gave an encouraging cry, holding up her flower. ]
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Her expression is soft and Emcee the Swablu actually looks rather gentle himself.]
I'm glad you've at least found something better here, Walter. Everyone deserves something better after being put through hell.